I just really want to plan what I could do before I leave this World...

I'm not depressive I just don't want to suffer too much when I get old.

I plan what I could do to make my life worthwhile but not focused too much in money.

I loved many people but never learned to love myself.

I see myself as a resource material to be molded, regulated, controlled and disposed.


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