I'm hiding so many things

Too afraid to be caught

I don't like it but I still do it

It brings me relief over my fears

I guess that depicts the idea of psychopathy because I for sure don't want to get in trouble

Why am I obsessed with psychopaths?

Because I envy them I want to not hve feelings

Funny thing because I got mine but fleeting, sometimes there's triggers and I like how my heart cleanched and I can't seem to breathe

I think I'm living a double life, I badly desire to be perfect, I'm pretty aware I don't want to go to hell

But man I don't know why I feel like I'm

restraining so much from turning evil

Because I know for a fact I can't turn real bad but I'm really messy in my faith

It pains me that  I have a lot of things already I don't seem to be happy

Dang I'm so messed up and I feel caged



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