I don't wanna kill myself I just don't want to exist anymore!

If I will be given a choice to be born or not, I wish I haven't born.

But now I'm existing so just need to deal with it!

I don't have enough reason to lived but also don't have reason to die.

I wish someone can heard my cry!

I just want to love and be loved by someone,

I want to see the sunrise of hope,

But then after sunrise it sets and darkness come


I'm tired of living, I'm tired of feeling empty

I'm tired of going through cycles of joy to sadness,

day to night, light and dark, life to death.

Time is excruciating, waiting for it and living on it

I don't want to do something bad

but I'm too tired to do something good either


I started to seek God but still I feel doomed

Oh what should I do, I'm tired of trying

Oh, I just want to have a temporary heaven in this temporary world!!!

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